Numb Şiiri - Gaius Flavius Divinus

I realize that now,
I am not hopeful or untroubled.
Just I turned into a numb thing.
Touch but do not feel anything,
Goodness or evilness.
I was laughing like a statue,
Also wrecked that bullshit.
LİTERALLY
My options are the best of the worst.
And these opportunities are unexpected.
I am waiting alone in this crowd,
And I have no expectations about life or another life.
Not good being an unemotional clown.
A laughter, applause, laugh and make fun of every nonsense.
İf I wanna even say a word nonetheless,
No comment.